CLASSMATES!

I really have something on my freaking chest. I know I am not the smartest in my classes nor in the school, but what sinks through my blood that people want to know about how to do a project, what did you make on your project. OMG and the biggest is WHAT GRADE DID SHE GIVE YOU? Know witch its what grade did I earn. They have the nerve to say I was in class every week. So what do that mean in class every week. Are you focusing? Did you do your homework? What did you make on your test. Saying she is favoring. Stop talking so much in class and act your age and maybe things will work out. I have a lot going on in my life right now and when I have a question I asked the teacher NOT a student. But then you had the nerves to say why she gave you that particular grade. Talk to the teacher not to me. I don't mean no harm but since I been at City College I try not to take people home with me. I say less as possible unless I am speaking to the teacher. I did not come to school to make friends. I came to get educated for Billing and Coding not witches because they are bad news. At my age, all of my so call friends are back home. The reason for so call is that I don't trust no one but MY SAVIOR JESUS CHRIST. I don't put my whole in my husband and that's my husband. I trust my husband and my family to a limit so imagine how I feel about jealous Bsssss. Get to know my personality, because I am not, will not play with you. That's why I don't do Bsssss. They will make you snap and that why I stay out of people business and its best to stay out of mine. I don't get it if you are mad at the teacher for your grade take it up with her and not with me. I can't wait until Friday for school to be over. I hear a lot about the teachers but to me its the stupid women that keeps up mess because this particular woman is MESSY.

CRAZY KIDS!

What in the world is going on with these crazy kids now days. A 13 year old girl and her 15 year old boyfriend/friend stabbed the girl's mom in the garage in Ocala. ??????

FOOLS!

You know, I can care less about anyone's preferences. They can be gay, lesbian or what, but it sickens me to see on the news out in Winter Park about a man trying to kidnapped a 9 year old boy. I have a lot of HATE for that fool. I know my son is very tall and big for his age but that does not mean a thing because he is still a child. My son thinks like a child. My son does childish things. You never know who may be out there watching. I pray to my LORD SAVIOR I am not tested on that. I would hate to think what I would do if I would run up on someone doing that to my child or anybody's child. Like I said I have a lot of hate for child molesters. If I see it I know I would CAVE  his skull in. Now that is a reason to go to jail, not this other mess, trying to destroy these innocent kids lives.

MEN!

Is the old saying true, "you can't live with them" or " you can't live without them". You really can't live with them if they are going to constantly cheat on you. I looked at Robin Thicke a minute ago. I think he is a sexy artist. I love his music and his style. It by no means give him the right to do what he did to his wife (Paula). One thing I can't stand is a lying, cheating A man. It doesn't matter how much money you have or who you are. Treat your woman or wife the way you want to be treated or GET THE STEPPING. It is always sad when something like this happens and of course it affects the child. I think from experience that his wife Paula need to let him swim for a while. If she takes him back this quick, she will loose. Grandmother said, never let a man think you need him as much as he needs you. We as women have to keep our heads up because we know there is a lot of temptation out there and we have to be up on the game as well and not be so naïve. Give Robin Thicke 3 to 6 months. Can he make it. Will he make it. Can he do it. We as women wait out all the time.

Kids grow up so fast. You have to try and take every picture of all their events they are in by camera or video if you can. 8th or 12th grade, you still gets excited about their ball dance. It is so funny, Dejuan is so skinny, we had to take his tuxedo pants to the cleaners for them to do alterations. How in the world 6'4 with a 32 in the waist line. That's crazy, I guess dress slacks for him is different from his jeans. His jeans is 34. With his long braids, he has an appointment with the salon today. We are more excited than he is. It bring tears to my eyes because he is just growing up to doggone fast. Omg, I told my husband I am going to stay their at the ball and my husband told me " NO YOUR NOT " lol. Can we slow the time down?

CARELESS!

It is very disturbing to hear about an innocent child left unattended and drown. What is wrong with the parents in the world today? Yesterday, they found a 2 year old in the pond on Silver Star & Pine Hills area. The lady said that the baby wondered off. ARE YOU SERIOUS! I was just looking at the news and what about the woman that killed her 2 year old because she was frustrated about potty training so she took her several miles away and buried her. YOU GOT TO BE KIDDING! ?? Why do these women have all these kids and abuse them. Why do they allow their man/boyfriend to abuse them. Why? Nothing is more important in my life than my kids that I carried 9 months. I will never understand.

FAMILY HATERS

God is so good. For the past few days I have woke up with a terrible headache. I believe I have too much on my plate. I trust my God that everything will be alright. This transition that I am going to make I believe is for the better. I can and will come and finish my 8 credits next Spring. Its so amazing how people has so much to say about your life and they are sitting at home doing nothing everyday, not even trying to find a job or go to school. GROWN ADULTS.....It has come back to me why don't I let my husband go out alone and I stay here. First of all, its not their business. Second, I and my husband will be a team. We will make more money than we ever had. As long as my son is happy with the situation its all good. I told my husband the same ones that borrowed money in the family from him is talking about us will be the same ones that will have to come back to us. But guess what, the bank will be closed! FAMILY HATERS

IS YOUR LIFE PERFECT?

How is it that we are so eager to judge someone like your life is peachy king. I read an article about a couple that lives near two gay couples. She and her husband has a problem with it because they was not raised like that and don't believe in it, so they don't interact with them. The other neighbors do not like how they treated the gay couples so they are not welcome to any of there gatherings in the neighborhood so they are upset.....................I personally don't believe in it as well, but that doesn't stop me from being someone's friend. My thing is what about what's in a person heart. I was raised if they don't bother you don't bother them and that goes for anyone. Be mindful be respectful. Gays or not we are all human beings and God has the last say so regardless on how we may feel about one another. Years ago, I had a lesbian friend I met at the restaurant where I worked. My first husband was ignorant to the extreme that when I and others went out she did not come to my house like the other ladies because he made her very uncomfortable. Long story short, he is gone and we stayed friends. People get the wrong idea about gays or lesbians about they want to be with or touch you. That's not the case at all. I never had a problem with her in that form or fashion. She was really a cool friend. I am not gay and I know of a few that don't like me, so you can't judge a book by its cover until you read it.

Gotha Middle is on there way to the champion ship. They are 5 and 0. They beat Chainey Lake on Wednesday 44 to 28. They have to beat Southwest next Wednesday to enter for the champion ship and believe they can do it. Go Go Gooootha!

This is a good one here. The lady daughter was unresponsive and so she tried to revive her and did not call 911. Buried her baby miles away from their home. It was reported that she is pregnant again. SORRY , NO REMORSE LOCK HER A - UP AND THROW AWAY THE KEY. You know what I heard that maybe she is slow and have a lot going on, REALLY REALLY. Who don't have problems. DO YOU KNOW ANYBODY IN THIS WORLD TODAY LIFE IS JUST PEACHY KING. My granddaddy used to say just keep living because you can't run from it. You have to stay praised up. The woman is pregnant. She knew how to do that. Again, NO REMORSE!

Soooo everytime we step out the door, if we don't like something or someone or anything, we are going to start shooting up the place and call it STAND YOUR GROUND........UNBELIEVEABLE.

JEALOUSY!

How in the world can you carry kids in your womb and it turn out that one is jealous of the other. You are suppose to uplift your sibling with love. The kids were never separate. They receive the same things. As parents, if you give one gift you give the other. You love your kids the same. There is no I love him more than I love him. Where did all this come about? My mom said that the oldest shouldn't be so selfish. In his school age years, he received all the fame and now his little brother is getting all the attention he has a problem with it. Your 12 years apart. I love both my boys. I just don't get it.

Last night, was another good night for my son Dejuan. He didn't get but 12 points. He was upset that he missed some of his lay-ups. My husband told him to man up and that he had did a wonderful job and he want get all the shots but at least he tried. My husband said its just a game, enjoy and have fun. Dejuan said Pop if you had never played you don't know. It's more than just a game. I looked and laughed and my son had gotten upset with us. It was funny to me

Last night was awesome. Gotha Middle School blew Bridgewater away at there home by 30 points and Gotha girls won by 20 points. I give 2 thumbs up to Gotha Grizzlies. My son Dejuan had 23 points and 14 rebounds. Tonight we play Sun Ridge Middle School at Gotha. I and my husband heard a few people sitting in the back of us, at the game talking about my baby so tall and thin laughing. Saying that's not a child , that's a grown man out there. I yelled to Dejuan KEEP DUNKING ON THEM BABY!

I need some input on this matter and will respect anyone's opinion. This summer I am going for my CDL this summer. My lease is up in May. I will ride the rode for two years with my husband as a team. We can double the money and I know I will always have a job. I am excited about this. I talked to my son and he said he will mis me and dad but he knows we have to do what we have to do. It want be so bad because we will come in every three weeks for a couple of days and head back out to keep the money rolling. His AAU coach and his wife want to get him and another parent want to get him from the team. They understand and is willing to help. The problem is I'm not speaking to one of my sisters anyway because she is so ignorant. She said we are wrong because they are not family and I should bring Dejuan home to Memphis. Dejuan does not want to go to Memphis. Dejuan is 6'4 wearing a 14 at the age of 14. He is happy at Gotha Middle. He doesn't matter what parent because they love him and vice versa. He is a star at Gotha basketball and Florida Force basketball keeps him on the internet. Me nor my husband don't believe he will get recognize out in Memphis. Half of the town is desserted. He will be in high school next year. Don't you think I should be looking at his future or satisfy the family which half of them don't have crap going for them anyway.

You know you can love someone and not like them at times. My impatient husband knows I am at school but as soon as 1pm comes around he texts. How in the heck can I get from Altamonte Springs to Ocoee in  few minutes. He said he worries about me but I say give me a little space. He has called 3 times and text. He drives for a living so he can stay on the phone all day. I love my husband its nerve recking at times. Maybe I have to much going on . I don't want to take it out on my son or my husband. What do you think?

If there wasn't for bad luck, there wouldn't be any luck at all. I had a phone call yesterday around 1:30. A young man asked for Shawn Johnson and my heart was pounding "oh my God a job interview", so after 1 minute he asked me about school that was on my resume. It was so weird it is on resume (I'm saying to myself). He replied I'm sorry Shawn but we can't work around your school and have a nice day. I said excuse me but what company is this and he said you are still in school and thank you for your time and he hung up. What a jerk!

Is anyone else having a hard time sleeping. Up in the middle of the night even on the days when there is no school or work. Now that I am not working I still can't get to sleep. I am waking up at 3 and 4 in the morning daily as though I am going to work. Besides blood pressure meds the doctor wants to discuss Insomnia. I refuse to take anything else. He replied what ever is on my mind I need to get it off because I can have a stroke. I and my husband talked with the doctor December and I was told I need to let something go because every time I came to his office my pressure were always between 160/170 over 100/110. No one wants to be sick and no one wants to take meds. Being a wife, mom, grandma, student, supervisor and my head was about to explode. If you don't know, I let the job go with a notice. My husband said its ok, but after only being marry a little over 2 years he says ok to any thing I speak. I see the bills that run through the house hold and I'm not sure if I made the right decision to let the job go. I some times think I should have taken off from school. I hate to think like that but I'm so frustrated with the unemployment rate that I can scream. With one income we are getting by. I would like to get ahead. I know I am not the only one thinking this way. Although I try so hard, it is so hard to function when things are not going the way I would love. All I hear on this end is don't worry. I'm human and I do worry and I know that has a lot to do with my health. I trust in my Lord Savior. I pray and pray.

I feel like I'm the only one in the world that don't have a face book page. The sister next to me put some of the craziest and stupid stuff on there. Is her personal business your business. I knew she was a little off, but I didn't think she has already fallen.

You know, I came to Florida not only for me but for my son. Memphis is rated up with Detroit. It is so disturbing to see everyday I look on the news and see our young generation killing. My son in Memphis is 25. My son here with me is 14. Twin young men right there near our school killed a 22 year old. Do you think some of them wake up to thinking how can and when and how they are going to kill someone. Both sides of my family said I am too protected of Dejuan. Did anyone see the 2 young men robbed a store and got caught. They are 15 and 17. It was on the news last week. I just found out yesterday that was my husband niece son. Because I don't allow my son to come in the house when he gets ready or allow him to smoke weed. Maybe allow a girl to spend the night as though he is an adult. All of this goes on in my husband family. I want to keep Dejuan on the right track. My husband don't allow Dejuan to associate with them. He is a honor student and he plays for the AAU team and for Gotha Middle. Am I to protected. I believe I'm just trying to be careful.

Sorry, I have been out of sight this week, but I'm giving everything I have to make it to class today. I can't seem to shake this cold. It feels like I'm in Memphis with a pounding headache. I am the one not to like to miss class because you get further and further behind. The bed, pills and tea is about the best thing I know right now so  please bare with me.

The title of this page is Living In A Dream. My son Dejuan thinks money grows on trees. Christmas was 2 to 3 weeks ago and he is pointing out some Jordan tennis shoes that he wants. Dejuan's birthday is the 29th of December. Every year we make sure that he has a beautiful Christmas because he was born at that time ( after Christmas and before New Year ). My husband has him ruin to the core. My husband told me to take him to the mall and I said LOL. Dejuan stated that he is an honor student and he deserve those tennis. I told my son try again next Christmas LOL. Dejuan is 14 and wears a size 14 so I told him you may get more tennis through out the year but it want be JORDANS. For Christmas he received Lebrons and another pair of Nike.
He wants a pair of tennis every 2 months. Is he insane or I'm going coo coo.

Shawn  Johnson
WP wk 1 blog

Today I went to change my classes. I went from Nutrition to Principle of Management. I really believe that I will enjoy this particular class because Professor Beard seems to me to be down to earth and she is a communicator. Some teachers just teach and still you don't get it, but I like her style. She and Professor Sumner I would say is very much alike when it comes to teaching.

Continuing my education at City College is a real challenge for me. Lord knows I didn't think I would have made it this far. I have had a few bumps in the road. My faith has kept me grounded.
I really appreciate J.R., Professor Gray, and Professor Sumner for sticking by me. After all I have been through, I would consider them as my mentors.

When I'm at home feeling sad and discourage about my classwork, I am very thankful to have my son and my husband stand by my side to drown in my ear that I can do this and I have come to far to let go now. Today is another bless day. Thanks to my God!