I need some input on this matter and will respect anyone's opinion. This summer I am going for my CDL this summer. My lease is up in May. I will ride the rode for two years with my husband as a team. We can double the money and I know I will always have a job. I am excited about this. I talked to my son and he said he will mis me and dad but he knows we have to do what we have to do. It want be so bad because we will come in every three weeks for a couple of days and head back out to keep the money rolling. His AAU coach and his wife want to get him and another parent want to get him from the team. They understand and is willing to help. The problem is I'm not speaking to one of my sisters anyway because she is so ignorant. She said we are wrong because they are not family and I should bring Dejuan home to Memphis. Dejuan does not want to go to Memphis. Dejuan is 6'4 wearing a 14 at the age of 14. He is happy at Gotha Middle. He doesn't matter what parent because they love him and vice versa. He is a star at Gotha basketball and Florida Force basketball keeps him on the internet. Me nor my husband don't believe he will get recognize out in Memphis. Half of the town is desserted. He will be in high school next year. Don't you think I should be looking at his future or satisfy the family which half of them don't have crap going for them anyway.

You know you can love someone and not like them at times. My impatient husband knows I am at school but as soon as 1pm comes around he texts. How in the heck can I get from Altamonte Springs to Ocoee in  few minutes. He said he worries about me but I say give me a little space. He has called 3 times and text. He drives for a living so he can stay on the phone all day. I love my husband its nerve recking at times. Maybe I have to much going on . I don't want to take it out on my son or my husband. What do you think?

If there wasn't for bad luck, there wouldn't be any luck at all. I had a phone call yesterday around 1:30. A young man asked for Shawn Johnson and my heart was pounding "oh my God a job interview", so after 1 minute he asked me about school that was on my resume. It was so weird it is on resume (I'm saying to myself). He replied I'm sorry Shawn but we can't work around your school and have a nice day. I said excuse me but what company is this and he said you are still in school and thank you for your time and he hung up. What a jerk!

Is anyone else having a hard time sleeping. Up in the middle of the night even on the days when there is no school or work. Now that I am not working I still can't get to sleep. I am waking up at 3 and 4 in the morning daily as though I am going to work. Besides blood pressure meds the doctor wants to discuss Insomnia. I refuse to take anything else. He replied what ever is on my mind I need to get it off because I can have a stroke. I and my husband talked with the doctor December and I was told I need to let something go because every time I came to his office my pressure were always between 160/170 over 100/110. No one wants to be sick and no one wants to take meds. Being a wife, mom, grandma, student, supervisor and my head was about to explode. If you don't know, I let the job go with a notice. My husband said its ok, but after only being marry a little over 2 years he says ok to any thing I speak. I see the bills that run through the house hold and I'm not sure if I made the right decision to let the job go. I some times think I should have taken off from school. I hate to think like that but I'm so frustrated with the unemployment rate that I can scream. With one income we are getting by. I would like to get ahead. I know I am not the only one thinking this way. Although I try so hard, it is so hard to function when things are not going the way I would love. All I hear on this end is don't worry. I'm human and I do worry and I know that has a lot to do with my health. I trust in my Lord Savior. I pray and pray.

I feel like I'm the only one in the world that don't have a face book page. The sister next to me put some of the craziest and stupid stuff on there. Is her personal business your business. I knew she was a little off, but I didn't think she has already fallen.

You know, I came to Florida not only for me but for my son. Memphis is rated up with Detroit. It is so disturbing to see everyday I look on the news and see our young generation killing. My son in Memphis is 25. My son here with me is 14. Twin young men right there near our school killed a 22 year old. Do you think some of them wake up to thinking how can and when and how they are going to kill someone. Both sides of my family said I am too protected of Dejuan. Did anyone see the 2 young men robbed a store and got caught. They are 15 and 17. It was on the news last week. I just found out yesterday that was my husband niece son. Because I don't allow my son to come in the house when he gets ready or allow him to smoke weed. Maybe allow a girl to spend the night as though he is an adult. All of this goes on in my husband family. I want to keep Dejuan on the right track. My husband don't allow Dejuan to associate with them. He is a honor student and he plays for the AAU team and for Gotha Middle. Am I to protected. I believe I'm just trying to be careful.

Sorry, I have been out of sight this week, but I'm giving everything I have to make it to class today. I can't seem to shake this cold. It feels like I'm in Memphis with a pounding headache. I am the one not to like to miss class because you get further and further behind. The bed, pills and tea is about the best thing I know right now so  please bare with me.

The title of this page is Living In A Dream. My son Dejuan thinks money grows on trees. Christmas was 2 to 3 weeks ago and he is pointing out some Jordan tennis shoes that he wants. Dejuan's birthday is the 29th of December. Every year we make sure that he has a beautiful Christmas because he was born at that time ( after Christmas and before New Year ). My husband has him ruin to the core. My husband told me to take him to the mall and I said LOL. Dejuan stated that he is an honor student and he deserve those tennis. I told my son try again next Christmas LOL. Dejuan is 14 and wears a size 14 so I told him you may get more tennis through out the year but it want be JORDANS. For Christmas he received Lebrons and another pair of Nike.
He wants a pair of tennis every 2 months. Is he insane or I'm going coo coo.

Shawn  Johnson
WP wk 1 blog

Today I went to change my classes. I went from Nutrition to Principle of Management. I really believe that I will enjoy this particular class because Professor Beard seems to me to be down to earth and she is a communicator. Some teachers just teach and still you don't get it, but I like her style. She and Professor Sumner I would say is very much alike when it comes to teaching.

Continuing my education at City College is a real challenge for me. Lord knows I didn't think I would have made it this far. I have had a few bumps in the road. My faith has kept me grounded.
I really appreciate J.R., Professor Gray, and Professor Sumner for sticking by me. After all I have been through, I would consider them as my mentors.

When I'm at home feeling sad and discourage about my classwork, I am very thankful to have my son and my husband stand by my side to drown in my ear that I can do this and I have come to far to let go now. Today is another bless day. Thanks to my God!